Guilty Pleasure...

When we were born in this world, it would be more easier if we had a modul to turn to..
nobody told me it would end up like this..no body say it's not gonna be easy too

So, who's to blame beside myself??

i've choose my way..and i've passed so many U turn..but i never take that change..
now,i almost get there..but i freak out..
so many 'what if??' in my head..it's getting louder every minute..

i know it's hard for u,for me,for all of us..so,please..don't make it more harder..
i never want it this way..

i'm begging to be find a way to convince myself..this is it..
this is my glory..this is what i want..this for the looong waiting..

but,why do i still feel incomplete?
why i even want this??
relationship is complicated..if i take 1 wrong move..then i'm out of the game..